I hope you enjoyed my journal, occasional humor, and insight. I also hope
you learned something in the process. I know I did.
Life has left me. It seems the last surgery was my undoing. But all is well
for me. It is you my friends that have the short end of the stik. You are
still on planet earth. I am with my Lord, Jesus Christ in heaven this very
Some of you know me personally some only via the internet. Those who know me
personally know that I have not always been the best person I should have
been. I admit I have made many many mistakes in this life. I hope you can
find it your hearts to forgive me my failings. I could spend all night
writing each and every one but I need my rest before surgery. Besides, you
that know me, knows my sins as well as I. But I know that God has forgiven
me I just hope you can.
My life has been interesting to say the least. When I was in H.S. and
college I would have never thought I would have had to battle cancer twice,
when the war but lose the battle that left me in a wheelchair then again
refight the battle and lose a leg. I have never thought of myself as
handicapped. I never needed the label. I always forged ahead doing the
activities that I had always done. Nothing needs put a damper on your life.
Health issues are just that. You are only as debilitated as you allow
yourself to be. My first greatest moment was turning my life over to Christ.
My second greatest moment was reaffirming that belief and trying to right
the wrongs I had done and truly living my life for Christ.
It is my last prayer that you take a look at your lives and I ask you to
read the book of John (yes in the Bible). There is only one sure thing in
this world and that we are all sinners and are cursed to hell if we do not
repent/turn away from our sins and turn toward Jesus Christ and accept him
as our Lord and Savior.
I know, you are saying "but I am a good person" but like the bible says,
"There is non righteous, no not one." No one gets into heaven for being good
or doing good deeds. We are not capable of doing enough good even if we
tried. No my friends - there is ONLY ONE WAY. Repent of your sins and ask
Christ to come into your heart and save your soul.
Roman Road to Salvation
The Gospel of Grace
(revealed by our Lord Jesus Christ to our Apostle Paul)
Many people think they will go to heaven because they have lived a good
life. Perhaps, they treat all of their neighbors fairly. Maybe they
volunteer for charity work and have never broken the law. Maybe they were
even baptized or go to church regularly. But the Bible, God's Word, says
that no one can live up to God's standard of righteousness.
Romans 3:10 "As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one ...."
Romans 3:23 "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God ...."
Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal
life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
Salvation cannot be earned. Everyone is a sinner and deserves death, but God
gives eternal life. So how can we receive God's gift of eternal life?
Romans 1:16 "For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the
power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth ...."
To be saved, we must believe the gospel. The word "gospel" means "good
news". But before we can believe the good news, we have to know what it is.
1 Corinthians 15:1-4 "Moreover, brethren, I declare unto you the gospel ...
that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; And that he was
buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures
This is the gospel which we must believe in order to be saved. Now, how does
believing this gospel save us?
Romans 5:8-9 "But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were
yet sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, being now justified by his
blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him."
Romans 3:22-26 "Even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus
Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference:
For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; Being justified
freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus: Whom God
hath set forth to be a propitiation (appeasing sacrifice) through faith in
his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are
past, through the forbearance of God; To declare, I say, at this time his
righteousness: that he might be just, and the justifier of him which
believeth in Jesus."
We can be saved from the wrath of God, because Jesus Christ, the Son of God,
died on the cross as a sacrifice for our sins and rose from the dead. He
paid the price for us, and we are justified in God's eyes through our faith
in the blood of Jesus Christ.
Ephesians 2:8-9 "For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of
yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works lest any man should boast."
There will be no boasting in heaven. We cannot be saved by our own
righteousness, but only by God's grace, through faith.
Ephesians 1:13-14 "In whom ye also trusted, after that ye heard the word of
truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye
were sealed with that holy Spirit of promise, which is the earnest of our
inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, unto the
praise of his glory."
Once we believe the gospel, we are sealed with God's Holy Spirit. This is
God's deposit, that guarantees he will redeem us, whom our Lord Jesus Christ
"purchased with his own blood" (Acts 20:28).
Studying the Bible is an essential part of the growth of every believer. New
believers should begin by reading the letters of our Apostle Paul (Romans
11:13), starting with Romans and then continuing through all of Paul's
It is so simple. Yet it is the biggest step you will ever make. But the
rewards are countless.
I pray that you will take this message to heart and turn your life over to
I hope one day to welcome you to heaven or see you in the Rapture.
This is Jerry's last wishes to post this for you all to see.
Ganked from reahkitty by way of paynesgrey
O1. Make a list of 5 things you can see:
b. Glen Beck show on TV
c. My baby girl, Annie
d. My new portable drafting tablet that is getting lonely
e. The book I am reading, Moon Shot, and the Apollo 11 & First Lunar Landing models that are setting near the book wondering why they have yet to be put together
O2. Would you ever get plastic surgery?
Technically I already have, multiple times but I would like to have the place along my eyebrow fixed, it's the skin left over from the forehead flap they had to do when they removed the cancer from above my eyebrow.
O3. Is there anything in your fridge right now that you would never eat/drink?
Bread and Butter Pickles any other kind are fine by never those.
O4. What's your occupation?
I am disabled but I used to be a diesel mechanic and worked as a finish carpenter in the construction biz before I was in the wheelchair and after the chair I was a computer systems analyst/consultant and Junior College substitute teacher for all computer classes.
O5. Do you nap a lot?
I do now, more than I would like to but when you are sick a lot you don't get much choice in the matter.
O6. What was your first celebrity crush?
That was a long time ago. I think it must have been a toss up between Jeannie for I Dream of Jeannie and Mary Ann from Gilligan's Island.
O7. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
Fandom = Firefly; Obsession = Nasa/Astronomy; Addiction = Caffeine/nicotene .
O8. What are you listening to right now?
The Five-0'clock news
O9. What was the last text message you received?
I have all text messaging blocked on my cell.
1O. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
In no particular order, LJ , various eMail, local newspapers, Drudge Report, The Strategy Page, Debka Report, WorldNetDaily, Knights & Knaves Alehouse, The Delvers Dungeon, Swords & Wizardry forums, The OD&D Discussion, WillWheaton Dot Net in Exile, Michio Kaku's site, NASA, TYhe Hubble site, Space.com, Science Daily, Live Science.com, SkyTonight.com, Astronomy.com, Scientific American, Hard SciFi.Net, HardScifi.com, Starship COmbat Forums, Fine Scale Magazine & Forums, Squadron Mail Order Hobby Shop, ConSimWorld, Armchair General, Fileds of Fire, Panzer Games, Classic Battletech,com, Star Trek Starship Tactical Combat Simulator: Forum, My eBay, Noble Knight Games, Whats new with Phil and Dixie, Order of the Stik, Dork Tower, Full Frontal Nerdity, Larry Leadhead, Nodwick, Travellers Aid Society, Children of Earth, Freelance Traveller, The Zhodani Base, TAS-NET, Traveller Freeport, CyberTraveller, Citizens of the Imperium, and of course my website The Spinward Main.
11. What was the last thing you bought?
A nice older (yet never used) Alvin bow compass set with 8" and 4" center adjust compasses with trammel arm and an 8" divider. There were also other accessories along with inking heads for the compasses.
12. Radiohead, Muse or Interpol? Choose one.
Interpol (the law enforcement agency not the band)
13. Does the weather affect your mood?
Not really but it sure affects my joints and how my body feels.
14. What is your zodiac sign?
15. Name a song that makes you think about a ship/character that you like lately.
Ballad of Serenity, The ship Serenity from Firefly, Almost anything from Jean Michel Jarre's Equinox or Oxygene reminds me of space and NASA. I used to play his CD's set on repeat every night I would be outside gazing at the stars and planets through my telescope.
16. Weird dream:
I don't have weird dreams. They are either normal dreams or horrific nightmares and I don't care to talk about those.
17. Do you have any siblings?
By blood, I have 1 Brothers, 2 Half-Brothers, 1 half-sister, By marriage I have 4 step sisters, I also have 3 Brothers by choice that are closer to me than any blood could provide, they are Doug, Russ, and Jason. I only wish Russ and Jason were closer but at least for the time, Doug is back and plans to be nearby for a long long time.
18. What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
Up yours, you #((#$()# @##! You deserve every bit of $#!# you bring on yourself.
19.What are your plans for next weekend?
Get Tina completely and finally moved out.
2O. Say something to the person who tagged you:
No one tagged me, I ripped this off from Reahkitty who ripped it off from someone else
Four days ago I was sick as a dog. Something that hasn't been all the uncommon in the previous week or so and it is still going on. When I am so sick running high temps and the like I tend to sleep a lot. That day I woke up to a silent house. Doug was also sick as heck and he was just as out of it as I was. The house was unusually quiet. No TV in the living room. No banging of drawers or cabinets in the kitchen and no yelling and cussing at the pets. I pulled my aching body out of bed to check on Tina. She had been having a lot of back pains lately so I wanted to be sure she was ok. When the pains hit she goes and lays on her special mattress.
Well she wasn't in the bedroom. So I went to the kitchen to check and see if the car was in the garage - I couldn't remember if she had any appointments that afternoon or not. Yup the car was gone. OK, I would wait for a while since she usually doesnt have appointments after 2pm and since it was about 3:30p I knew she would likely be home soon unless she stopped to do some grocery shopping which was unlikely since we were planning on that the following day.
4:00p came and went, then 4:30. So I tried her cell. No response. I called her best friend, no clue. I called her mom. Again there was no idea where she had got off to. Then I started to get worried. I figured I would give her till 5pm and then I would call out the Cavalry.
I didn't have to wait till 5p. About 5 minutes after I got off the phone with her mom, the phone rang. Her mom had called to let me know that she had just arrived there and that she would call me back after awhile. Well boy howdy did she call back. From the time I said hello I don't think she took a breath for the next 15 minutes all the while informing me of how much of a dick I am and how much she hates my brother and how she is leaving and never coming back and oh yeah by the way, how she is holding the deed to the house hostage until she can get all her stuff moved out.
There was other stuff said that for the time, is better left unreported. This is also true of the little visit Tina and her mother made a couple days later to pick up her medicine (which she had forgot the first time although she had remembered her cigarettes... go figure). But as soon as I have the deed back in my hand all will be reported if nothing more than for the "watching a train wreck" factor.
So stay tuned.
If all goes well she will be completely moved out within a couple weeks.
For those that have asked and were wondering about my health and what has been happening, I am happy to report that I am healing, slowly, but overall in much better health than I was two months ago when I made my last post prior to yesterday.
The "Kansas City Incident" is still not out of my head nor will it likely ever be. One would never ever expect to fear for their life down to their bones, in the care of a hospital. I still won't talk about it more than that but I will say that if someone tells you that this country is the same as it ever was, they are a bleeding lier or they have not left their house in the past 10 years. People have not just become disrespectful, they have become mean, angry, and many times overtly thugish. Race vs. race is worse than it ever has been and certain groups within the races have become as fanatical as Islamoterrorists. They no longer hide out in Montana or deep within the inner city, they have moved into the 'burbs and into the small and mid-sized towns of America. They are no longer just crazy militia men, thugs, or gangs. They work at the checkout stand at Wal-Mart, as nurses in hospitals, as police officers, and call center staff. They are now found in every walk of life and they are like a wild pack of dogs, shy and timid when by themselves unless they spot a major weakness - but when two, three or more are put together they gain strength in numbers and can become deadly vicious. Some speak little to no English, some do. But one thing is on common. If you are not one of them you can be in danger if you are in a position where they can gang up on you or you can not defend yourself. With the election of our latest President I believe certain groups will become that more embolden.
It has been 7 weeks since I entered the hospital here near home. I have only a few days remaining until I return home. The treatments have went well but I am still many long months before I can think about being healed. Maybe in 5 or 6 months I will be able to have surgery to help speed along the progress. Until then I will get to be at home but I will be restricted to my specialty air bed and not be allowed to get up except to use the facilities. The upside to all of this is that my Brother moved his 36" flatscreen LCD HDTV into my office (where the bed is) and we have a great cable supplier. I have tons of model ships and planes to work on. But the best part is that my room is large enough to accommodate a decent size table and 4 to 6 people. So I suspect I will be back to running Traveller full time before the end of February.
Of course when it comes to RPGs, as much as I love Original white box D&D (the first rpg I ever played and learned and still like to play very much), nothing gets me more jazzed than Traveller - and I do mean CLASSIC Traveller! (or MegaTraveller in a pinch) but not any of those silly versions that scarred the landscape for far too long nor that new Rikki Tikki Traveller, the "classic Traveller thats not really classic Traveller" put out by Mongoose Games. God Bless Martin J Dougherty for his excellent work on RTTs supplement, the new Spinward Marches book. MJD has been a long time keeper of the flame and doesn't short shrift anyone when it comes to quality work. But play the REAL CLASSIC TRAVELLER, heck even MegaTraveller, get MJDs book and his other offerings at Mongoose and Comstar-Avenger Games but save your hard earned dough when it comes to the Rikki Tikki Traveller game itself. If you don't already have Classic or MegaTraveller, well then I am deeply saddened by that fact - I guess in that case if you can't find The Traveller Book (the original one), the Little Black Box/Books, or the Starter Box Set on eBay and you can't find someone else with the Real Stuff to play with, then I guess you will just have to settle and slum it. Tough luck for you bucko.
So about 4 or 5 days till I go home again. Makes me happy to think about it. I have missed my family a lot and I have missed my baby girl (my cocker spaniel) just as much. It will be nice to be home and have her in my lap all day and curled up in the small of my back at night. She is only a little spoiled.
I made arrangements for my web site to stay online. Now I just have to do something with it. I still have a story to write that is a year past due. I hope to heck I can remember the details. 2008 was not a banner year for me. It was one of the worst ever, all things considered. But I made it through to the other side when the odds where against me. So with that in mind I don't feel to bad about it all.
Here's to 2009. May she be better than the past year.
ganked from al_kenobi
I Watch Too Much Television - meme
1. Bold the shows you watch/used to watch.
2. Italicize the shows you've seen at least one episode of.
3. Underline the shows you own [at least one season] on DVD and/or VHS.
4. Post your answers.
50. Quantum Leap
49. Prison Break
48. Veronica Mars
47. Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
46. Sex & The City
43. Star Trek
42. Only Fools and Horses
41. Band of Brothers
40. Life on Mars
39. Monty Python
38. Curb Your Enthusiasm
37. Star Trek: The Next Generation
36. Father Ted
33. CSI Las Vegas
32. Babylon 5
28. Fawlty Towers
27. Six Feet Under
26. Red Dwarf
24. Twin Peaks
23. The Office
22. The Shield
18. Arrested Development
17. South park
16. Dr Who
13. Battlestar Galactica
12. Family Guy
09. The X-Files
08. The Wire
04. The West Wing
03. The Sopranos
02. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
01. The Simpsons
I am settled into the hospital now. I also scored Hi-Speed Wireless internet this time by being very nice to the IT person. It only took her two days to figure out how to get me on the infrastructure private network after an ok by corporate. It was worth the wait.
The LOML and my Brother get to come over every few days thanks to the low gas prices. That really makes a difference in the tolerability of it all and the LOMLs family is only 10 mins away so thats great too. Even my good friend from Tulsa and my other from Chetopa are able to come in every now and again since I am closer to them.
The food sucks of course but oh well. My healing up, according to the doc has been very good but it is going to take a very long time to get where they can even do surgery on me again. I expect to be here as I said earlier at least thru Christmas and likely into Jan. What I am facing and dealing with isn't like the other times. This is so far worse that even I have a hard time wrapping my head around it. In the end I easily could end up dying from this if the infections rebound and become untreatable - which is very possible at this time. But all hopes are for the best and that I keep healing. I will be starting hyperbaric Oxygen therapy next week and that should help speed healing and help the quality of the healing. But it is for only 8 weeks. After that if I am not where I can finish all this with surgery then I don't know what will happen to me. I can't stay here in the hospital after that due to insurance coverage so everything hinges on the treatments over these past and future 10 weeks.
I guess we will just have to wait and see. I am surely not ready to check out of it all.... yet.
Well after a false start at the hospital in KC I am now in the hospital in Neodesha Ks. looks like I will be here till sometime in January.
That is if I don't go crazy first.
After the KC incident I didnt think I would be able to stay in a hospital overnight ever again let alone 9 weeks. But it has to be done. That means I just will have to suck it up and do it.
At least I am sleeping some again.
So the French are telling people not to be concerned about the Milan ATGMs seized by the Taliban
France played down the capture by Taliban of two French anti-tank missiles seized after a major attack was launched on hundreds of its troops in Afghanistan on Friday.
Defence Minister Herve Morin said that western forces in Afghanistan had to abandon weapons in the field and that the main concern had been to get the troops out of last Saturday's ambush alive.
'It was an ambush in a narrow valley, with a lot of Taliban,' said Morin as he visited an army unit in the eastern town of Annecy that was about to send some of its soldiers to Afghanistan.
'The essential thing is that everyone is alive,' he said, adding that the abandoned Milan anti-tank missiles would be difficult to use for anyone without the proper training.
But wait, there's more!
Check out this bit, buried in the lower part of the article:
It said that around 300 French troops were attacked by about 100 Taliban and had to retreat after fierce fighting. Air cover was called in to help them get out of the ambush, said Lieutenant Colonel Bruno Louisfert, a French army spokesman in Afghanistan.
Uh, someone explain the French running away when they outnumber the Durka-Durkas by 3-to-1
25 Years ago today, the USMC suffered their worst single-day of casualties since WWII. They were the first casualties of what we are only now recognizing as a generation-long struggle against a religiously-motivated group of fanatics intent on targeting and ultimately destroying our way of life. Yes, this was one of if not the earliest strikes against us in the ongoing War on Terror. It is a shame that so many people think this all started on 9-11. I really think that if people had paid attention like the should have we wouldn't even be wondering if that islamic and terrorist sympathizer and socialist Barrack OBama might have a real chance at becoming out next President. The DoD has a memorial site at DefenseLinkPresident Reagan's Address to the Nation, 27 OCT 1983
My fellow Americans:read the rest at the link
Some 2 months ago we were shocked by the brutal massacre of 269 men, women, and children, more than 60 of them Americans, in the shooting down of a Korean airliner. Now, in these past several days, violence has erupted again, in Lebanon and Grenada.
In Lebanon, we have some 1,600 marines, part of a multinational force that's trying to help the people of Lebanon restore order and stability to that troubled land. Our marines are assigned to the south of the city of Beirut, near the only airport operating in Lebanon. Just a mile or so to the north is the Italian contingent and not far from them, the French and a company of British soldiers.
This past Sunday, at 22 minutes after 6 Beirut time, with dawn just breaking, a truck, looking like a lot of other vehicles in the city, approached the airport on a busy, main road. There was nothing in its appearance to suggest it was any different than the trucks or cars that were normally seen on and around the airport. But this one was different. At the wheel was a young man on a suicide mission.
The truck carried some 2,000 pounds of explosives, but there was no way our marine guards could know this. Their first warning that something was wrong came when the truck crashed through a series of barriers, including a chain-link fence and barbed wire entanglements. The guards opened fire, but it was too late. The truck smashed through the doors of the headquarters building in which our marines were sleeping and instantly exploded. The four-story concrete building collapsed in a pile of rubble.
More than 200 of the sleeping men were killed in that one hideous, insane attack. Many others suffered injury and are hospitalized here or in Europe.
This was not the end of the horror. At almost the same instant, another vehicle on a suicide and murder mission crashed into the headquarters of the French peacekeeping force, an eight-story building, destroying it and killing more than 50 French soldiers.
Prior to this day of horror, there had been several tragedies for our men in the multinational force. Attacks by snipers and mortar fire had taken their toll.
I called bereaved parents and/or widows of the victims to express on behalf of all of us our sorrow and sympathy. Sometimes there were questions. And now many of you are asking: Why should our young men be dying in Lebanon? Why is Lebanon important to us?
We all knew SAS guys were tough as nails. This guy, though, makes nails look like a washed-up former Pennsylvania National Guard E-7 drill sergeant wanna-be with a real tough-guy act
DESPITE being shot twice during an ambush in Afghanistan, an SAS soldier lashed himself to the front of his patrol vehicle so he wouldn't be left behind if he passed out from loss of blood and kept on fighting.
The Digger is expected to be recommended for a high level bravery award.
Suffering from serious upper body wounds, the soldier struggled on to the front of his SAS long range patrol vehicle (LRPV) and, under heavy fire, used a rope to attach himself firmly between the vehicle's bull bar and radiator.
Once he was secured, and there was no chance that he would fall off if he fainted, he picked up his rifle and resumed firing at the enemy during a two-hour fighting withdrawal.